So I remember wanting to tell about so much about everything but I'll have to keep it brief because it's already late and I actually have somewhere to be in the morning. That's pretty shocking I think.
The many weeks that have gone by have been ones of careful contemplation, bursts of energy and an element of risk that I'd like to explain. All of these things are tremendously good though.
Before I get into the super serious life stuff, lemme chat a little about a movie. I saw that effected me pretty deeply. At least while I was viewing it. "500 days of summer" Seen it? If not you probably should. Well if you've been in a relationship that somewhere along the lines went sour and is no longer you have even more of a reason to see it. I can describe the movie or at least parts of it as a knife to my chest just because of the true tone. Just like sermons can echo certain aspects of my life, this movie had a very similar mirror effect. My life isn't quite as harsh or eventful but in terms of the emotions, pretty spot on. The stories main characters are Zooey Daschanel and that guy from 10 things I hate about you. Very natural characters and a great story. It definitely makes you think about relationship and when they work and when they don't. Such rollercoasters at times.
Well the serious part of life. I've been in this situation where I'm trying hard to wrap up a project that I'm doing as a freelance job and move on to finding full time employment and get my butt into the city. It's all in one sentence because I thought of it all as one thing for quite some time. Simple, finish, get job, move out from the burbs into the city, work hard and enjoy city living. Rock! We all know life tends not to be as easy as we see it. I now know there's quite a few steps in between and I think it's a journey I'm going to thoroughly enjoy.
I was recently asked to move into a big house with a few friends. Rent was 500 bucks a month and the location was great as was the group of friends. What an amazing opportunity I thought. Then looking into my account, the reality of it all was that I was pretty tapped and didn't have the sort of cash for first and last months rent. And the weeks continue and an opportunity arrises to move into a loft a few friends were renting as a workspace. I would only be moving the work side of my life and finally making a clear break from home and work in this world I call freelance. Again, checking funds they were low but I felt this was the right move, the situation was right for me and current situation. It would make me commit to freelance work into the new year at least and make me work harder than I ever had before. Plus there's the huge added bonus of being around super talented guys in similar fields as my own. I can learn a lot here. I expressed huge huge interest and continued thinking and wondering if this was a risk. It was, if I was unable to pay rent to the space or all those other bills that one has when they have a cell phone, a band and a car, then I'd be shooting myself in the foot.
In the midst of this I had a serious deadline for something hugely important for my church. We were changing names and rebranding and I had been brought in to help with some of the communication graphics. Loving the chance to work with all the talented people I jumped into it and though my schedule was rammed, I found 3 hardcore work days in a row. That hadn't happened for me in months, at least not on anything I was truly cared for in my heart. I had some materials to get to a client and once that was all done I would be able to work on a sandwich board and send out a proof for approval. I did run later than I would have imagined but I worked my butt off and got it done. When I heard how people liked it I was beyond happy.
During the work and the next few days after that Sunday I had a feeling that someone was right there with me. Almost like the big man had his hand on my shoulder letting me know it's going to be alright. It was a crazy feeling and really gave me the faith to jump in and commit to the studio space. The most amazing thing happened just a few days after my decision, I got calls from a bunch of different perspective clients. Now everything is all too amazing. I took out the cashola for rent today, and tomorrow I start in on a project that will go a long way to paying my bills for the next month. There's just so much to love in a situation like this. I think that I must have people praying for me and I couldn't be more thankful.
Wow, I'm not sure how well I've been writing this post but I'm almost done. I want to send a huge congrats to MR. ASSOCIATE PASTOR at freechurch (our new name!) Kevin Makins. He just became associate pastor after being an intern for a year. This is an exciting time for so many reasons, so much good around, so much to be thankful for and so much more to look forward to.
Love to all,
J
hand on shoulder
2 comments:
Congrats on the big move. Sounds like a good step.
Thanks so much Kat! I feel like it's an amazing thing and a good time for it. Hard work is ahead and I don't think I've ever been quite as excited about it. By the sounds of it you're on to your own moves.
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