Shivers on Sunday

It's been quite a week and quite a weekend. Tonight for some odd reason I won't go into detail about many of them. I'll tell you about tonight instead. It's Sunday so I was at Freedomize again for another visit. I can't remember what number I'm on and I think that's great. I'm there to stay for sure so I'll stop with the counting. I keep meeting great people and wanting to talk endlessly to them. I think I'm a little socially starved at work, especially in the last few months. Since not too long ago I was in a lul of not meeting any new people for months it's pretty phenomenal.

The sermon this week was about listening. It rang pretty close to me. As I've explained a couple times before, sometimes I just love to close my eyes when I'm in a place and just listen. It's amazing what things you can hear when you take the time to listen. Obviously the sermon wasn't only about having these moments and more about the larger picture of listening and hearing what is being said as the main message. Still the entire idea was great. Kevin spoke after the pastor and gave everyone a moment of silence. I closed my eyes and could hear the hum of the city outside and the audio equipment. The shifting and squeaking of peoples shoes as they tried to sit still. Even light breathing of those around me. It gave me shivers. Have you ever been listening to a really great song and it gave you shivers in a particular part? I think there's been a few songs like this through my life. I don't have one right now though. I think I had more when I didn't drive though. If I was out with the parents at night or on a road trip I'd always have my phones plugged in listening to my soundtrack and would often close my eyes to focus on the music. There was always one song at each particular point in my life that would give me a shiver right down my spine. It's crazy how this happens. Yes FT is a little chilly at times but I'm sure it wasn't that. It's amazing what sound can do.

This week begins a little bit of a journey for me. I'm about to be unemployed and start spending days at home. A part of me worries that I will not use my time wisely, that I'll wake up late, I'll watch too much tv, I'll slack off and not be able to find a job. But really, it's not a large part of me. The larger part of me is excited to start being creative, to go to a coffee shop and work on creative ideas for a whole day then get home and start producing it all. To stay up until a vision is somewhat complete before it's lost. Hopefully to clear up some unfinished work I owe people. And perhaps, I'll be able to catch up with some friends for lunch or coffee during the week. I'd love that. A year ago, I went from one of the most flexible schedules to a highly fixed and busy 9-5 job thingy. It dealt with it fairly well though, making weekends my own, very separate from work. I think I have to be mindful of the late nights and make sure I don't get too out of whack with the daylight hours of the world. I'm sure there's lots that will help me along.

I think I'm just rambling now. I was going to watch a movie but I think I'd be better to pack my stuff for practice and read a bit. I have enough thoughts racing through my mind that I don't really need more things to think about. I will have Trainspotting to watch this week though. I recently saw Slumdog Millionaire. It was great and I highly suggest. I won't tell you a thing about it though. Not now. Too tired.

Night all.

Rock, peace, and love,

J