A little too relaxed?

If you're someone who likes to read entire blog posts, maybe you should get a tea for this one. I'm feeling pretty mirror like this evening. Maybe it's cause my brain thinks it's 9pm.

It's been a great break, lots of good times, lots of days to let it all hang out and do very little or nothing. A lot of time to think about life, love, the complexities therein, to think about faith, God and where it fit's in with me, to think about music and the things that keep me kicking day in and day out good day or bad. Time hasn't exactly gone by slowly through the break but I'm sure I have more timeless moments before the break is up and even then it's not the end of the world when I have to go back to work.

Anyway, today, as it's 2am I'm wondering if I've played the break too much as slack off time and haven't got enough things done. I feel unproductive and not particularly well rested. That being said I'm pretty content. I'm not worried about the time that has passed or feel that I need to rush to catch up. I try not to look back on times and think about all the crazy things that should have happened and how horrible it is that things didn't go to plan. I choose to celebrate things that did happen. Looking forward is better than looking back I think. I met some more new people and devoted some time to the family. Awesome in my books.

I do wonder sometimes how technology impacts my work. I just upgraded from my G4 Powerbook and have been spending copious amounts of time on the new laptop. Very little of this time has been work time though. It's strange. The computer is so much more capable that my previous computer yet I've been a facebook junkie like never before. The bad thing is that all this connectivity makes me want instant gratification and responses and lots of amazing things to happen based on random things I post and rant about. Then for some odd reason I'll get frustrated by lack of response and all of that. It's really foolish. There are so many other things I should focus on. I could very well use a lot of this time to research and learn for the impending job hunt in the new year. I guess it's all the nature of a procrastinator. It'll get done... tomorrow right? I've learned through much procrastination, the hardest thing to do is to start. Sometimes it's torture to begin but once the first effort is made, hours can be poured onto anything. The key is to start early as possible. (Let's take my own advice tomorrow ya?)

So tomorrow I'll have a rewarding day, wake up at a decent time, and get to some things I've put off and hopefully all goes well. There's one more weekend in the break and I feel that I need to earn it in some way. I don't need to rush, but starting to turn the wheels won't be too bad.

In the past week or so I'm sure you've seen a rise in blog posts. That's partly because of the freedom of the break and that I simply like blogging. After the Japan trip I really missed writing somewhere when I had random sequences of thoughts and no one to pour them out to or listen to them. This has been a great release and I think I'll continue at some sort of pace continually changing the subjects and levels of personal content. Every day is different and that'll all be reflected here. Something that I have a hard time with is having a lack of restrictions and with that I'll totally embrace this platform and try to run in all sorts of directions. I've found myself constantly inspired and moved by others blogs. They all ask such relevant questions that seem to make my day better, that make my brain more active than it's been the past few years and I love that.

So yeah, tomorrow, I'll do some minimal computer time and make some serious things happen. I'm sure I'll report back.

For now, it's soooo bed time. Sweet dreams.

Peace love and rock!

J